Gleanings: Five Lenten & Easter Reflections

“Gleanings” offers spiritual reflections from some of the Christian tradition’s most insightful and beloved authors. This time around, Madonna House founder Catherine Doherty and Jesuit James Martin offer thoughts about Lent; priest and author Henri Nouwen expresses the hope we all share for a fruitful Lent; and martyred Orthodox priest Alexander Men and British author Caryll Houselander speak to the joy of Easter Resurrection. We offer them to you for your Lenten/Easter meditations.



Lent: School of Love, Catherine Doherty

Lent is God’s lovemaking to man. But God’s lovemaking is strange. He knows, for instance, that a child is trained to jump by having first a little brick to jump over, for his feet are very tiny; then two bricks; then three; and finally the Olympic jump—whatever it is.

Why do we have to train children and ourselves? Because as we discipline ourselves, our road to God becomes more sure. My goal is Jesus Christ. At first I move like a baby, then a little faster, and finally I’m able to run. Lent is the time of re-learning how to run towards God instead of wandering about aimlessly.

When one is a runner or a skier, one has to discipline and train oneself. Lent is a training for love. And God brings obstacles so that we might become a little faster, a little more disciplined. For he is the Lover who is standing there waiting for us to come. He knows that he has to wait for us to grow in his love.

On Ash Wednesday we had ashes placed on our foreheads. What a curious Catholic custom! What does it mean, having ashes on your forehead? It means that you came from the earth and to the earth you will return. It means that you have only this life in which to prove that you love God….

“Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Remember, man, that you are but dust….” Ah, but what dust! You’re dust that is going to be one with God. Isn’t that enough to make you dance right in the middle of this ash business?

We’re not an ordinary dust, we’re a dust that is going to be eternal; a dust that is going to be glorified; a dust that’s going to be with God. So, we received those ashes with joy—a joy based on discipline—and entered the corridor of Lent. Then, even today, before we die, we can see his face, as through a veil.

(Source: Catherine Dougherty, Season of Mercy)


The Five Lessons of Good Friday, James Martin, S.J.

The sufferings and death of Jesus, which Christians commemorate on Good Friday, may seem far removed from our everyday lives. After all, it is almost impossible to imagine that anyone reading this essay will ever be crucified. (On the other hand, persecution of Christians continues in many parts of the world even today.) So what can the story of Jesus’s crucifixion, as recorded in the Gospels almost 2,000 years ago, teach us about our own lives?

1: Physical suffering is part of life 

Unlike philosophies or belief systems that suggest that suffering is more or less an illusion, Jesus says this from the cross: suffering is real. As a fully human person, Jesus suffered. On Good Friday, he was beaten, tortured and then nailed to a cross, the most agonizing way the Roman authorities had devised for capital punishment. There, according to the Gospels, he hung for three hours. Victims of crucifixion died either from loss of blood or, more commonly, asphyxiation, as the weight of their bodies pulled on their wrists, compressed their lungs and made breathing impossible. Jesus’s life, like any human life, included physical suffering, and an immense amount of it on Good Friday.

But even before Good Friday, Jesus suffered physically, because he had a human body like yours and mine. Growing up in the tiny town of Nazareth, and later as an adult traveling throughout Galilee and Judea, Jesus likely had headaches, got the flu, sprained an ankle or two, and perhaps even broke a bone—in an era of lousy sanitation and only the most primitive of “medical” knowledge. As a fully human person with a fully human body, he suffered physical aches and pains. Good Friday was not the only day he suffered physically.

2: Emotional suffering is part of life

When Christians speak of Jesus’s suffering on Good Friday, they tend to focus on his physical trials. Many Early Renaissance artists, for example, depicted that agony in gruesome detail, as a way of reminding Christians of what their Savior underwent. But Jesus’s “Agony on the Cross” included emotional sufferings as well. In these emotions we can see further intersections with our lives.

To begin with, Jesus of Nazareth felt a deep sense of abandonment. How could he not? All of his disciples had abandoned him before the crucifixion, save for a few faithful women and the Apostle John. Peter, his closest friend, denied even knowing him. Moreover, Jesus felt the suffering of betrayal: another close friend, Judas, betrayed him outright. How that must have weighed on his heart as he hung on the cross.

Finally, Jesus likely knew the crushing disappointment of seeing his great work seemingly come to an end. That is, he may have felt like a failure. While it’s almost impossible to know what was going on in Jesus’s mind on Good Friday (save for the few words he utters before Pontius Pilate and while on the cross) it’s not unreasonable to think that he lamented the end of his public ministry.

Now, here we enter some complicated theological terrain. On the one hand, since Jesus had a human consciousness, he would not have known what was going to happen. On the other hand, since he had a fully divine consciousness he would have.

So, on the one hand, it is possible that Jesus knew that the Resurrection was coming. (By the way, for anyone who thinks that this “lessens” his suffering, think of being in a dentist’s chair: knowing it will be over soon does not remove the pain.) In fact, Jesus predicts the Resurrection at various points in the Gospel. But it is also possible that Jesus the fully human one may have been surprised on Easter Sunday, when he was raised from the dead.

Thus, as he hung on the cross, Jesus might have mourned the end of his great project—into which he had poured his heart and soul—the end to his hopes for all his followers, the end to all that he tried to do for humanity. And so he says, “It is finished.”

3: Suffering is not the result of sin

Sometimes it is. If we do something sinful or make immoral decisions that lead to our suffering, we could say that this suffering comes as the result of sin. But most of the time, particularly when it comes to illness and other tragedies, it is assuredly not. If you still harbor any doubts about that, think about this: Jesus, the sinless one, suffered a great deal. He was not being “punished for his sins.”

This idea was more or less common in Jesus’s time. In the Gospel of John, when Jesus meets a man who was born blind, his disciples ask, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered bluntly. “Neither this man nor his parents sinned.”

Sadly, this attitude is still common today. Recently, friend living with inoperable cancer received a visit from friends she knew from her church. They callously told her that they felt her illness was the work of “Satan.” In other words, sin had entered her life and she was being punished. When she told me this, I reminded her not only of the Gospel of John, but Jesus’s own suffering.

4: Jesus is fully human

Christians believe that Jesus Christ is fully human and fully divine. Now this is, as theologians like to say, a mystery, something that we will never be able to fully comprehend. But belief in this is essential for Christian belief. Besides, attempts to paint Jesus as either only human or only divine simply don’t square with the Jesus we encounter in the Gospels. We read of him both weeping at the death of his friend Lazarus (hardly something that the classic Aristotelian or Platonic God would do), and we also see him heal the sick, still storms, and raise people from the dead (hardly something that people expected of religious figures in first-century Galilee and Judea, or modern-day anywhere today).

In the events of his Passion, we see Jesus’s humanity on display. On Holy Thursday, in the Garden of Gethsemane Jesus says, “Remove this cup.” In other words, I don’t want to die. Only when he realizes that it is his Father’s will that he undergo death, does he assent. But initially the human one expresses, in the bluntest language possible, that he does not wish to die. Later, also revealing his humanity, he utters a great cry from the Cross, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” I don’t think Jesus ever despaired—to my mind, someone in union with the Father would not be able to do that—but he clearly struggled and, at that moment, felt a profound sense of God’s absence. Here is his humanity on full display.

This is often a consolation to people who pray to Jesus, the risen one in heaven. Why? Because he understands their humanity. He gets it. Christians do not have a God who cannot understand them, because God endured all the things that we do.

5: Suffering is not the last word. 

The message of Good Friday is incomplete without Easter. The story of the passion is not simply of a man being brutally tortured, nailed to a cross and executed by the Romans. It is the story of a man who turns himself fully over to the Father’s will, trusts that something new will come out of this offering, and receives the astonishing gift of new life. The message of Easter is not only that Christ is risen, not only that suffering is not the last word, not only that God gives new life, but this: Nothing is impossible with God.

So may you have a prayerful Good Friday, but, more important, may you have a happy Easter.

(Source: Huffington Post, April 17, 2014)


 Finding God Again, Henri Nouwen

How often have I lived through these weeks without paying much attention to penance, fasting, and prayer? How often have I missed the spiritual fruits of the season without even being aware of it? But how can I ever really celebrate Easter without observing Lent? How can I rejoice fully in your Resurrection when I have avoided participating in your death? Yes, Lord, I have to die—with you, through you, and in you—and thus become ready to recognize you when you appear to me in your Resurrection. There is so much in me that needs to die: false attachments, greed and anger, impatience and stinginess…. I see clearly now how little I have died with you, really gone your way and been faithful to it. O Lord, make this Lenten season different from the other ones. Let me find you again. Amen.

(Source: A Cry for Mercy: Prayers from the Genesee)


Christ is Risen!, Alexander Men

When you and I turn to the Holy Scriptures and read about those radiant days when the Lord appeared after His Resurrection, let us reflect on something very important which we may not all have noticed. He appeared to many people, but to each of them in a different way.

On one occasion, it was the weeping Mary Magdalene, grieving along by the empty tomb; another time it was Peter, confused and troubled after returning from the garden, where he had found the stone rolled away from the tomb. Later we see the disciples on the lake. John senses the Lord’s presence in his heart and recognizes Him; Peter plunges in at once and swims to Him. Then, as we read in the letters of the Apostle Paul, among the last people to whom the Lord appeared was Paul himself—or Saul, who used to persecute the Church of God.

This continues even now. The risen Christ is unseen, but manifests Himself imperceptibly to each of us. Any one of us who in our lives has sensed, even for a moment, the proximity of another world has had an encounter with the risen Lord. He comes to everyone, knocking at the door of their hearts and finding His own words for each one.

Our task is to listen, to respond to that knock, for the Lord has come to save, revive, and change the lives of each one of us. So on Easter Day, as we return to our homes, may each of us take that joy away with us in our hearts; along with the thought that the Lord has manifested Himself to me, He has risen for my sake as well. He speaks to me, He remains with me and always will—as my Lord, my Savior, and my God.

May the Lord preserve you.

(Source: Awake to Life!)


Easter, Caryll Houselander

It is Easter morning.

Christ unwinds the burial bands

and lays them by:

the balm and the spikenard,

the anointing of tears,

the soundless snow

of the white sleep of death,

the body of Christ lays by.


He sets His feet on the dust.

He extends His open hands

with a supreme gesture of love.

He uncovers His heart.


It is not a ghost

who walks in the silver

of morning light;

the shadow that falls on the tombs

is the shadow of a man

of flesh and blood…


Christ rises from the dead.

There is no salute of guns,

only everywhere in the world

there are men who are aware

of a silence that is audible,

a voice

that is heard only inside the heart,

telling the wordless secret

of ultimate joy.



man is listening

for the first footsteps

of the risen Christ.


He hears

an unseen bird singing

and leaves opening

one by one

in a multitudinous green solitude.


In the silence

he hears the beat

of his own pulse.


It gathers like a tide rising

inside the throbbing in his forehead.

He hears the drumming

of the sap rising

from the roots of the world

and the infinitesimal music

of the tiny hammering

of life under the earth,

and the tap, tap in the egg.


In the red bud of his heart

summer is slumbering,

warm and murmurous

as a swarm of bees,

on heavy honey of golden light.

His heart swells

with a new and secret majesty,

and now he knows

that it is not his own pulse

that he hears in the silence

and feels with his finger-tips

in his thin wrist;

it is the eternal heartbeat

of Absolute Love.

(Source: “Holy Saturday,” in The Flowering Tree)


Bishop’s Lenten/Easter Message: Burning Hearts

“Were not our hearts burning within us

while he spoke to us on the way and opened the Scriptures to us?”

Luke 24:32


Every year the Church gives us the season of Lent to spiritually prepare ourselves for the great feast of Easter. Lent is given to us as a time to turn our minds and our hearts to the Lord and examine how we might grow closer in our relationship with Christ and walk in the footsteps of Christ in service to God’s people.

During Lent, we open ourselves more to the Lord. In a word, we use the season of Lent to be converted to the ancient disciplines of prayer, fasting and almsgiving. We engage in these practices so that we might recognize our need for God and one another. The Lenten disciplines help us express our repentance and proclaim our belief that we are called to walk with Christ in ways of peace, truth and love. The forty days of Lent prepare us to celebrate the Easter Feast with greater joy. The self-emptying disciplines of prayer, fasting and almsgiving give us an opportunity to discover the compassionate and loving dimensions of a God who invites us into a life-giving relationship with all of Creation.

At Easter, we sing our Alleluias and shout out our joy at all things made new by Christ’s Resurrection. The Resurrection not only gives meaning to our Lenten practices, but also to our lives as Christians. Christ has conquered death and has, as God promised, given us the gift of eternal life. Lent gives us the capacity at Easter to be aware of who God is and what God’s love is capable of—that is, that all of creation has the capacity for God’s gift of redemption in Christ.

The whole world is made new at Easter and we enter into the Season of Easter with a sense of peace that passes all understanding.

In our Easter joy we can see how our Lenten practices have aided us in recognizing how God’s love, manifest in the Incarnation, invites us into living the reality of the Kingdom present in the here and now. The simple joy of living in Christ becomes more and more attractive at Easter because of our dedication to our acts of conversion and repentance during Lent.

During the Easter season we hear how our ancestors in the faith encountered the resurrected Christ in the Word and the Breaking of the Bread. We hear how their hearts were on fire as Jesus spoke to them and told them the story of their life together. Like the disciples on to road to Emmaus, we continue to turn to the Lord because God’s dialogue of love requires a response from us. The grace of Easter gives us the spiritual energy to continue the dialogue as a way of maintaining our Lenten conversions and of turning our hearts to the Lord. We, too, seek Christ in the Living Word of God and in the Breaking of the Bread, so that we might be fed and be nourished to stand with our mothers and fathers in faith and say, our hearts are still on fire, because we still see Christ in the breaking of the bread, shared with all of God’s creation.


Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia!

He is Risen as he said!

Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia!


The Most Reverend George Lucey, FCM

Presiding Bishop

St. Francis of Assisi ANCC (Glen Ridge, NJ)


A Lenten Life

Brother John Bye-Torre, FCM, deacon-in-charge at St. Stephen ANCC in Seattle, will be ordained to the Holy Order of Presbyters in April. In this piece, he reflects on his formation journey.


“For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord,

they are plans for good and not for disaster,

to give you a future and a hope.

In these days when you pray, I will listen.

If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.”

Jeremiah 29: 11-13.


I love the season of Lent; I love this time because I need this time. I need this time because I am not very bright and have a long way to go yet. Lent provides me the occasion to specifically focus on shedding the old, decaying sheath of my soul and donning a new and improved self. The joyful part of Lent is I get to be reminded of this grace, this gift, at least once a year! Every now and again you need to completely turn off the power of your cell phone to receive software updates to keep your phone working at maximum efficiency. Lent is my time for prayer and penance, cleansing and renewal, solace and strength, with the goal of being of maximum efficiency for God’s work. Lord, help me, I pray, to keep Lent all the year long.

Prayer and penance

I sincerely believe prayer is a gift; a privilege given to us by God to communicate directly with him, to commune directly with his divinity, and to hold one another and especially ourselves in prayer. I need to talk with God on occasion but I need to be with God every moment of every day. You see, “It is in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.” (1 Cor 2:7)

Eventually I realized being with God and talking with God in prayer are not mutually exclusive; I can and should do both.

With a grateful heart I spent my diaconate practicum and initial formation with Fr. Jim Lehman and the wonderful souls of his parish, Holy Family ANCC. And as God would have it, it was Lent 2015. For those eight weeks in that holy season, I changed or more accurately but a tad trite sounding, I was transformed. It was Lent, it was time to look inward as I began this incredible chapter in my journey.

I faced a tough period of examination and trial. Yet, it was Lent and this wasn’t time intended to be fun. Once I was able to get over myself, I noticed I was being freed—really freed. “Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight. Yes, what joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt.” (Psalm 32:1-2) Throughout each Lenten practice—each Stations of the Cross, each Saturday and Sunday mass, each time I proclaimed the Gospel, each time I gave a homily, each time I served at the altar, each time I embraced the parishioners—I realized I was enjoying the grace of forgiveness and was given the incredible experience of ministering to God’s people under careful and meaningful supervision as my penance.

I was often emotional, weepy, and in awe at the power of prayer, forgiveness and penance. I had no choice but to be on my knees in gratitude and humility. Penance allowed me to make amends for my weaknesses. As I completed this portion of my formation I was indeed a changed man. I was given another chance to feel worthy of God’s love. “When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the obligation to do right. And what was the result? You are now ashamed of the things you used to do, things that will end in eternal doom. But now, you are free from the power of sin and have become slaves of God. Now you do those things that lead to holiness and result in eternal life. For the wages of sin is death but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 6:20-23)

Cleansing and renewal

Of course, once I returned home after celebrating Easter Sunday with Fr. Jim, Fr. Louie, my Franciscan sisters and brothers, and the Holy Family parish, I knew I was ready to serve God more effectively. I was a transformed dude, ready to be a missionary for Christ. So, with my shepherd’s loving support, I planted St. Stephen’s parish. I began cleansed and refreshed. It was time to channel St. Paul, so I prayed “…but I focus on this one thing: “Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” (Philippians 3:13).

It wasn’t pretty. To say I was determined and focused, with the energy of a much younger guy, euphemizes my driving, obnoxious behavior. I felt confident—read ‘pink cloud’ time.

While I felt cleansed I didn’t act renewed. It was Easter after all so, I took my bag of skills and tricks and applied myself completely. What actually happened was I forgot what I had just learned! I forgot what I had just learned during Lent. I forgot what I had just suffered through!

It took several weeks of constant open, frank, and often painful conversations with my bishop before I was able to take yet another close look at myself. “Do not act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do.” (Ephesians 5:17) I was behaving like the old me doing what I wanted. It was time to re-visit the desert to find the direction for my energy. Being forgiven, having been given the gift of meaningful penance, feeling cleansed and renewed was a good start but I needed to keep going…I was beginning to mature to the metaphor of a race; marathon versus sprint. I was on a marathon expending the energy of a sprinter.

Solace and strength

There are several examples of Jesus asking the petitioner or penitent, “What do you want of me?” Since my prayers usually are more about gratitude, thanksgiving, and intercessions for others, I was learning to ask God for my own needs, and asking did not come easy for me. As I practiced adding my petitions to my prayers I noticed St. Stephen and my diaconate ministries were settling into a slow but healthy pace. I loved praying the deacon’s mass and enjoyed the three parishioners who attended. I continued to plant seeds. I loved each baptism and marriage. I enjoyed helping at the senior center.

For the most part of this past year and a half I was functioning effectively; then came Advent 2016.

For a brief time, I felt I was not doing enough. The parish had stopped growing and I just knew I could do more. I realized I felt as if I was running in place—expending tons of energy without moving. For two weeks, I fell into a tough despair. My spiritual father reminded me I was preparing for my presbyteral ordination and would be tempted. I thought I already had learned those tough Lenten lessons. I cringed at having to re-visit the desert. Then it dawned on me. The desert is where Jesus was tempted. It was the desert where our ancient spiritual fathers and mothers went to be close to God. I found my solace in the desert place and was no longer in despair. I was frightened and needed strengthening to continue my journey.

 “God keeps his promise, and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to the test, he will give you the strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out.” (1 Cor 10:13). I took action. I made a list of my fears on a piece of paper and literally placed them at the foot of the cross on my home altar. I continued to pray but now my prayers had structure comprised of those Lenten lessons: gratitude, admission of sins, asking for forgiveness, promising acts of atonement, thanksgiving for the grace of solace, and asking for strength to continue. No one will believe I am a child and servant of God unless I believe I am a child and servant of God. No one will believe I am a child and servant of God unless I act like a child and servant of God. My diaconate ministries proved this to be true and as an aspiring priest it is just as true and applicable to me. “’Lord I don’t know how to speak. I am only a child.’” But the Lord said to me, ‘Do not say, I am only a child. You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.” (Jeremiah 1:7-8)

The Reality of Isaiah 6:8

God allows me to be the fullest and best me I can be. I say, ‘I can be’ because it is my choice to accept his relationship and my choice to be open to his forming me. I am his yet, he constantly invites me to follow his commandments knowing I am silly, ignorant, and self-centered. He not only gives me the choice to follow but encourages me to be none other than my true, own self—the dude he meant for me to be. Indeed, he has sent me several angels in the form of people to remind and support me in that endeavor.

Because of Lent, I am assured of forgiveness, given the opportunity for penance, showered with cleansing and renewal, and blessed with solace and strength.

Because of Easter, I am not afraid. I have a great deal to learn and humbly ask for your prayers for me this Lent and especially as I am ordained following this Easter.

I am your obedient servant in Christ.



Deacon John

Deacon John Bye-Torre, FCM

St. Stephen ANCC (Seattle, WA)



Devotional: Easter 2017

It has been dark before – but never as now

A darkness that wraps around and within the women.

They are but shadows – lost, shapeless, hopeless, aching for light, for a certainty now gone –

their dreams haunted with the sights and sounds and smells of death.

There is nothing left but to mourn and attend to Jesus one last time

but the way is shrouded, their hearts broken, steps leaden

as they journey in darkness to the murk of the tomb that holds his body, his promise

and all their hopes.


The soldiers are bored, their tedium numbing.

After all, the grave is quiet. The grave is final – nothing to see here. Wrapped in their cloaks against the night air, they keep their vigil, nodding off to sleep in their boredom.

But of a sudden, there is light, a brilliance exploding from the tomb, the phosphorescence of a thousand suns that dwarfs their meagre fire. And the stone that seals the tomb rolls away weightless, purposeless.

They are blinded, struck dumb, terrified, when out of the tomb steps Jesus risen, whole yet scarred. They scurry away and then all is quiet.


The angels, triumphant, settle in to wait for the women.


Mother Phyllis

Rev. Phyllis McHugh

St. Thomas More ANCC (Elkins Park, PA)